I am NOT a “christian”

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That blog title may shock many of you, but it’s the truth.    

I don’t follow the same standards that so many of the so-called christians follow, so I’m not a ‘christian’.  

For example, I don’t go to church.  I don’t read my bible every single day.  I do pray, but not for safety, wellness, security, wealth or happiness.  

I actually pray for the rapid demise of our civilized society because the sooner the apostasy happens, the sooner the beasts will appear…the sooner the beasts appear, the sooner the LORD Jesus Christ will come back, and I’m looking forward to that day mostly because that’s the day He will separate the sheep from the goats and send the goats to hell and the sheep to eternal glory with He and His Father.    

Therefore, I don’t tell “everyone” I know about Jesus, only a select few who the Holy Spirit leads me to share the truth with.  

I cuss.  I’m angry.  I’m frustrated with the world in general and all it’s unsavory, unethical, unrighteous, unloving, contemptible hatred towards the existence of God and my LORD Jesus and all those who actually worship in Spirit and in truth.  

I enjoy blaming everyone around me for my lack of success, mostly because I’m a people-pleaser . . . a push-over . . . and I happen to think that others deserve more than I do; so if it weren’t for all the pathetic, worthless, arrogant, prideful, joy-sucking, leeches in this world, my life would be pretty great!   

Oh, did I happen to mention that I’m a hypocrite?  

I’m as judgmental as they come, and I enjoy being judgmental.  I enjoy it, because it makes me feel good.  

In a weird and very pathetic way, being judgmental makes me feel superior.  Almost like I’m floating on air.  Cloud nine, if you will.  

I don’t feel shame, sadness, regret or any kind of sympathy or compassion towards the cattle in need or who experience loss, no matter how great or small it may be.  

I don’t go on mission trips.  I don’t offer my assistance to serve.  I don’t trust anyone and I never will. 

I don’t sing bawdy songs that repeat verses and chorus’ over and over and over again.  I don’t believe in having a seance and then referring to it as “worship”.  

I don’t listen to sermons on the radio or watch the tele-spouting evangelists, nor do I bother reading their books.  Mainly because they have nothing to offer.   

I lie to get myself out of sticky situations, therefore, I’m a liar.

I watch porn.  I hate it because I would rather have an honest, loving relationship with a real woman, but because no woman will have me, and with porn I’m never rejected, I’m a fornicator and quite possibly an adulterer.  

I don’t know how to love or to accept love.   

I don’t tithe in the manner that the church people command us to tithe.  I do it as I feel led by the Holy Spirit and give when the giving is needed.  

I don’t worship God the Father or my LORD Jesus in meaningless repetition as so many of the ‘good’, ‘wholesome’, ‘churchian’ folk do.  

I don’t drink alcoholic beverages, I don’t do drugs, I don’t have tattoos, I don’t have piercings; and other than watching porn, I don’t sleep around so I don’t have any STD’s or illegitimate children.

I have an actual RELATIONSHIP with my God, LORD, King and Savior; which means that like all REAL and HONEST relationships, God and I have our ups and downs.  

We have rocky, bumpy, joyful, stress-filled, exuberant, moments…but it’s REAL.  100%, in your face REAL.  Not a made-up fantasy of repetition and rituals and what’s more…we can never break up because once I’m His nothing and no one can ever separate us.  

God knows my every thought…every action…every struggle…every word.  He’s always with me.  

Is He pleased with me 100% of the time?   —  Nope!!   Do I regret that?  — Sometimes.   

And because of all this…I am NOT a christian. . . at least . . . not a christian by the world’s examples and definition.  

What I am, is a Follower of JESUS.  

The LORD JESUS CHRIST who was obedient unto His Father, even unto death, so the Father would be able to reconcile the world back unto Himself through the death of His Son on a cross.  Therefore, ANYONE would be saved who would look upon Jesus on that cross and believe that He is from God and would turn from their evil, wicked, disobedient deeds and believe in their hearts that God the Father raised Jesus from the dead on the third day.