Frustrated

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I’m not talking about the pathetic U.S. Presidential campaigns.  

No, I’m frustrated, because I met this woman who I REALLY like, but because of my pathetically numerous failed experiences in dating and my pathetic track record of disappointing relationships, I’m now a very insecure man who’s extremely afraid of asking a woman out on a date.  

Ever since I was a kid I’ve had no courage what so ever in asking a girl out on a date, mainly because I was always the outsider who never fit in…the ugly duckling…which you can read about Here and Here.

Of course, over the years I gained a little more courage each time I asked someone out on a date, but after my last failed relationship I’ve lost all courage and confidence in asking anyone out.  

I have ZERO confidence.  

None.  Nada.  Zilch.

I really don’t believe that women have any idea how much they affect the mental and emotional state of men when they repeatedly reject us.  It really is devastating to not only our egos, but also our confidence and morale.  I think that’s why so many men need the false sense of liquid courage (or the internet) to even muster a fraction of the energy and confidence needed to approach a woman.  

It’s pathetic, I tell ya.  

And now…after years and years of repeatedly being told I’m unwanted . . . here I am . . . once again . . . trying to muster the courage and figure out a way to look at this woman and ask her if she would like to meet me for dinner, coffee or another activity.  All the while telling myself that it’s not worth it because this will end just like every other relationship I’ve ever had . . .  six weeks and a cloud of dust.  

That’s right…every single dating relationship I ever had ended after six weeks, and they ran away into the arms of another man who they eventually married within three years of fleeing from me.  

For the women who have run away…a blessing. . . 

For me…it’s a pathetic curse.  One I’ve had to live with all my life. . .   

sooo…ya.  There’s that.  

pathetic…

pathetic…pathetic….pathetic…

pathetic…pathetic…pathetic…pathetic…pathetic…pathetic….pathetic…pathetic!!!!

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It’s pathetic how a lack of confidence and fear of rejection will keep me from taking a chance.  

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