Solomon said it best. Vanity of vanities, everything is vanity. There is nothing new under the sun and the life we all live really is pathetic.
I wish I could explain to you how little hope I have left in my life and how little I care. I just don’t have a heart for life anymore.
I beg God to take me home, but He leaves me here. I don’t want to be here, but there’s no where for me to go.
I have no direction, no hope, no joy, no loves, no hobbies, no ambition, nothing.
I’ve even lost all my humor and laughter.
I dread the evening because I know morning is coming, and I dread morning because I know I have to face a day filled with pathetic requests made by pathetic people who love to brown nose their way through life; and then, I have to go back to bed and dread morning because I know I have to face it all over again.
If I could lay down and fall asleep and never wake up, I’d be the happiest person in the world.
My heart is tired. . . actually, no…
I have no energy to face the day and speaking of, these are some of the longest days ever known to mankind.
so…I remain here.
waiting for some miracle, waiting for hope, waiting for direction, waiting for a calling, waiting for my heart to stop beating, waiting for my last breath.
And even that’s in vain.